The Warrior Goddess

I had not seen this term until recently and I haven't read the book on how to train myself to be one, but come on, you KNOW it sounds wicked C-O-O-L! I'm pretty sure if someone approached just about any woman and said to them, "Hey, how would you like to be a Warrior Goddess?" not a single one would turn them down. Mostly, I'm a cream puff...so NOT as awesome sounding as Warrior Goddess, but there it is. I have a polite streak a mile wide, a strict code of "Do no harm", and honestly I'm pretty easy to manipulate if you have chocolate and the ability to make me giggle. For years I didn't do well at ALL with vulnerability. Somehow allowing myself to even admit to having vulnerabilities felt like being weak and it took me a long time to update my inaccurate and antiquated definition. Although it's more accurate to say that I redefined "weak" in my mind instead of vulnerable.

Weakness is...blaming others for your mistakes, taking advantage of people when they are vulnerable, treating others unkindly, making excuses for your bad behaviour, and doing what is easy instead of what is right. Weakness is tearing others down to make yourself feel better, preying on others for your own benefit, and using a mask of lies in order to get your way. Showing real emotions? That is a strength, especially because it takes a lot of courage to do! My youngest daughter, who is now about to turn twenty-two taught me this life lesson when she was four and it's one I will never forget. I'm still working out how to let all of my emotions flow naturally instead of fighting them without shattering into a million pieces, so it's a process (...at least for me). Finding my "truth" and my power were a little easier, but they came with a mighty cost. Not everyone appreciates those who are truly comfortable in their own skin. In fact, some people are downright hostile about it, as if it offends them greatly. I had to learn that was their bag to carry, not mine, and remind myself not to pick it up! I don't know that I will ever attain the status of "Warrior Goddess", but cream puff is not so bad. It doesn't sound as sexy, but it's got teeth!