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I am an "accidental blogger". When I launched my writing career in March of 2014, one of the things that I decided to include was my journaling, which I have always found to be a comforting and therapeutic endeavor.  It was a big risk to open myself up in such a public forum, but it has taught me that, for the most part, we share far more experiences than we think. It's comforting to know I'm not alone!  (*the "Button Text" is the link to my first novel)
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The Day That Came

8/4/2016

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My mama, Leslie Jean
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C'est moi.
I stare at my face in the mirror as I get ready for my day, surprised to see it there, alive, animated and full of colour. Honestly, I didn't think I would make it to forty-seven, probably because that face looking back at me is SO much like my mothers and she died two months prior to her forty-seventh birthday. It's probably irrational that somewhere in my mind, I have attached my own fate to hers, especially considering our lives could not have turned out more different, but the mind is not always rational, nor are the fears and worries it conjures.

The last couple of weeks have been tumultuous and reflective, as one day slipped into the next with the ol' mountain man's life hanging in the balance. One of life's universal promises is that sooner or later, it always comes to an end (...although depending on what you believe, that ending is merely a beginning to something else MUCH better). Sometimes it's difficult for me not to obsess about this eventuality, the knowledge that things can change, and end, in the blink of an eye. Mostly, that premise is  not an "if", rather it's  a "when", and if I'm not careful, I will unpack and live there ever waiting on the brink.

I have lots of little tricks to refocus myself when I get too wrapped up there on that precarious edge. I go out and immerse myself in Mother Nature's majesty, spend time with children reading or playing or just listening to their thoughts and dreams and remember that whatever comes, I must make the most of my RIGHT NOW. I must live my life, dive into my relationships full-throttle. Time is too precious to waste even a moment holding back. And here I am, after worrying and wondering if I'd make it to the birthday my mother missed...the day stretched out ahead of me...the day that came! Hello there forty-seven year old girl! What shall we do today to make it count?!
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8/4/2016 08:25:30 pm

I have had a lot of trials and tribulations in my own life as well. I've even had a few near death experiences. It only led me to believe we were all here for a purpose. The challenges we experience in live are burdens to bare. But these burdens once overcome define us of who we are. One of my favorite sayings is you guessed it. What ever doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Always live life to the fullest and as I have always heard many people say. I have no filters.

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    I grew up in rural North Carolina. When I was only nineteen, I moved away and became a military wife. My only aspiration at that tender time in my life was to create an adult life that "fixed" all of the "injustices" of my childhood. Secretly, however, I wanted to reach for the sky! I wanted to be a writer and find ways to "save the world" (my mother used to say, "You have Save the World Syndrome".). Mostly, I wanted to matter.

    Since then, I have learned to reach well beyond what I ever dared to think was possible. I've learned not to allow fear to stop me from whatever future I want to create!

    What keeps me grounded? My Tribe! What provides the wind beneath my wings? A well of reserves filled with unstoppable passion!

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  • Amy M. Schaefer, Writer
  • Blog: From the Front Porch
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    • Children's Books
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