Suspend Me in Time

Ever have those perfect moments where you wish time would freeze, so you could hold on to them just a little longer? Moments that you stumble across and it feels like taking that first perfect bite of cake, savoring it on your tongue before finally having to swallow it down and lose the pleasure of it in your mouth to the process of mundane digestion. In dark days, those moments are a lifeline. In happy times, days fill up with so many of them, that it's easy to take them for granted. I shared many "perfect moments" with Aunt Mattie and they sustained me through a broken childhood, and shattered dreams. They often kept my fears at bay and reminded me that there is always a light in the dark, if you know where to look.

While writing this blog article, I sat on my deck enjoying the comfort of having nature all around me. I need the outdoors, especially with difficult topics, because it helps soothe things that hurt. While remembering various "perfect Mattie moments", tears of longing streaming down my face, I looked up. Playing right next to me was a black butterfly with indigo-tipped blue wings, fluttering carefree in the bushes beside me. "I am here," I could almost hear her whispering. "Alive...In the breeze that's teasing your hair and on the leaves...in the flowers you scent on the wind and the tingling bells of chimes dancing through time and space and the Universe. I am the blue of the sky above, the sway of the trees, and the call of birdsong." Try as I might, I cannot suspend the moments I wish to capture, nor call them back once they have passed...except in my memories and on a clean sheet of paper, with words that will never do justice to the feel of the actual moment, itself. It is enough, however, to remember and be ever mindful of when new moments will come...and they will come!

*Images @ carolinanature.com (butterfly) & girlichef.com (chocolate cake).

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