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I am an "accidental blogger". When I launched my writing career in March of 2014, one of the things that I decided to include was my journaling, which I have always found to be a comforting and therapeutic endeavor.  It was a big risk to open myself up in such a public forum, but it has taught me that, for the most part, we share far more experiences than we think. It's comforting to know I'm not alone!  (*the "Button Text" is the link to my first novel)
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Questions, Questions

3/11/2016

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Some days, like today, my head is so full of questions I can barely hear myself think! How one brain can hold so many thoughts and a bucket full of snot (thank you sinus infection) at the same time is beyond me! And truth be told, I'm not sure I even want to know all the answers to the ones currently driving me bonkers. I ask myself over and over, "Do you really need to know? How will it change things? What benefit could possibly come from digging out the answers?" I read these memes all the time talking about, "Just let it go" but none of them ever offer actual WAYS of doing that. I mean, if I could just let it go, why wouldn't I? I don't know how to let them go. And I'm sick to death of secrets and lies, relationships based on nothing but DNA or worse, mere familiarity. The older I get, the less patience and time I have to devote on fake anything. Life is difficult enough without the added puzzling mysteries of what is real and what is complete bullshit.

Many people have passed in and out of my life that I wish I had the opportunity to confront face to face and ask, "Why did you do that to me (or not do ______)?" Does the why really matter, though? It doesn't change anything. Hell, even knowing the why often still leaves a host of confusion and...further QUESTIONS! Maybe this is something I'll have to struggle with the rest of my life, this gnawing tenacity for answers. I do know without a doubt that people are messy, ergo relationships are as well. That, at least, answers some of the things I need to know. As for the rest, if I'm really lucky maybe I'll sneeze them out into a tissue and simply throw them away!
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    I grew up in rural North Carolina. When I was only nineteen, I moved away and became a military wife. My only aspiration at that tender time in my life was to create an adult life that "fixed" all of the "injustices" of my childhood. Secretly, however, I wanted to reach for the sky! I wanted to be a writer and find ways to "save the world" (my mother used to say, "You have Save the World Syndrome".). Mostly, I wanted to matter.

    Since then, I have learned to reach well beyond what I ever dared to think was possible. I've learned not to allow fear to stop me from whatever future I want to create!

    What keeps me grounded? My Tribe! What provides the wind beneath my wings? A well of reserves filled with unstoppable passion!

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  • Amy M. Schaefer, Writer
  • Blog: From the Front Porch
  • Novels
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    • Children's Books
  • About the Author
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  • Photo & Art Gallery