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I am an "accidental blogger". When I launched my writing career in March of 2014, one of the things that I decided to include was my journaling, which I have always found to be a comforting and therapeutic endeavor.  It was a big risk to open myself up in such a public forum, but it has taught me that, for the most part, we share far more experiences than we think. It's comforting to know I'm not alone!  (*the "Button Text" is the link to my first novel)
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My Birthday Wish

8/1/2017

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"Do not worry about the past or the future. This moment needs your attention, for this is where your life exists." --from www.iampoopsie.com

Being a worrier is a curse. My mind frequently hops around topics, situations, etc. that I have zero control over (...like our circus clown of a President and the potential damage he has the power to inflict or starving children around the world who die every single day from unbelievable poverty), as I worry about the outcome, the ramifications, and ponder what I can do to help or create something more positive in regards to those situations. I've always been of a mind that if you're not part of the solution, you're part of the problem (whatever that problem may be), so to see things that seem wrong to me (out "there" and inside myself) and not have the urge to do something about them goes completely against my nature. What I don't understand is when I got it in my head that my problems and ALL the problems are one in the same! Sane me knows that notion is ridiculous, and yet...my baby girl has hooked me on watching these DC Comics shows (i.e. The Flash, Arrow, DC's Legends of Tomorrow, and Supergirl) and I often find I can relate to the "heroes" who are troubled, tortured even, when they can't or don't fix everything. I mean, let's face it...at no time in my life have I been bitten by a radioactive spider and I certainly don't have the body or workout abilities as, say, Oliver Queen (a.k.a. the Arrow). I'm pretty sure that if I even attempted to do a halfass superhero workout, I'd literally collapse and DIE! But my Netflix superhero addiction not withstanding, I do understand the writer's version of those character dilemmas on a visceral level. *sigh*

With my forty-eighth birthday fast approaching, I've been thinking about something Astronaut Scott Kelly said. When I went to see him and his brother Mark at the Greensboro Coliseum (an absolutely amazing experience), he said that going into space was dangerous, being a Navy pilot was equally dangerous, but he couldn't worry about the parts of those endeavors that he personally could not control. He said about one of his shuttle missions, "I knew the role I had to play, the job I had to do and I could do my part, that part, to the very best of my ability and hope that all the others involved who were ultimately responsible for all of our lives also did their part just as diligently." That is one giant leap of Faith when the cost of being wrong is his life and the lives of others. I admire that resolve greatly! It inspires me.

I'm not a superhero (duh, shocker, right?!). I am not an astronaut. I have this one little life, this one little role to play in a great big world and an even more vast Universe and the thing is, I don't want to waste even a single drop. I want to wake up every morning that I'm allowed to do so, and use the 24 hours I'm given in that day to their fullest potential. Being grateful for being alive (which I absolutely am) is not the same as being significant to the world around me. That being said, my birthday wish is to find a more appropriate balance for my life-goals and stop worrying about all of the things that aren't in my power to "fix". As for the rest, the things beyond my simple human abilities, I have to have Faith that the other humans who occupy our Earth will do their own part towards making a better world. Some days that notion seems as fantastical as me suddenly wearing a cape, having superhuman strength, and flying around the globe righting wrongs all around me. Other days, when I come across a story of someone doing something fabulous, it doesn't feel like such a stretch (*see the story below for the ultimate in "fabulous" and inspiring)!




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Margaret
8/2/2017 08:08:26 am

Wear the cape anyway.

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Amy Marie
8/2/2017 09:04:28 am

I'll have to see where I can get one! Do you know of any discount superhero clothing stores??? ❤️ You!

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Amy Marie
8/2/2017 01:26:38 pm

Hahahahaha! I read this to my oldest and she said, totally deadpan, "EBay!"

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    I grew up in rural North Carolina. When I was only nineteen, I moved away and became a military wife. My only aspiration at that tender time in my life was to create an adult life that "fixed" all of the "injustices" of my childhood. Secretly, however, I wanted to reach for the sky! I wanted to be a writer and find ways to "save the world" (my mother used to say, "You have Save the World Syndrome".). Mostly, I wanted to matter.

    Since then, I have learned to reach well beyond what I ever dared to think was possible. I've learned not to allow fear to stop me from whatever future I want to create!

    What keeps me grounded? My Tribe! What provides the wind beneath my wings? A well of reserves filled with unstoppable passion!

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