 "I am watching over you from the stars, don't be scared, I know exactly where you are, cause there's a piece of me and it's burning in your heart, even death could never tear us apart." --from "Rock My Body" by The Higher I have lost count of the number of times that people or things have come into my life at the precise time I needed them...poignant words from a stranger, a song that comes on and conveys exactly what I'm feeling, an unexpected conversation with an old friend that carries on as if no time has passed, etc. Last night, as I sat on my deck star-gazing and trying to reign in emotions from my frustration in regards to my teaching career, a soft breeze began to blow and on the breeze I caught the sweet scent of roses. Aunt Mattie, my constant "Directional North", had a huge rose garden that she tended lovingly for as long as she was able. To me the scent of roses will forever be synonymous with a woman I couldn't have lived without. As I took in her scent on the breeze, it felt as if she and the Universe were saying, "It's going to be O.K." I let the aromatic comfort from the warm summer breeze soothe my pain. Today, while speaking with a friend of mine about these things, we got on the topic of songs that haunt us. I shared with him a song that always reminds me of my mother--"Hurt" by Christina Aguilera. When I was done playing it, he said to me, "I don't know why I feel like I should share this one with you. It doesn't speak to me but it seems right for this moment." He sent me "I Saved The World Today" by the Eurythmics and it had barely begun before my face was coated with tears. My mother used to say to me all the time, "Amy, you have Save-the-World Syndrome." He didn't know that...most people don't know that about me, but as it played I knew that yet again my ancestors and the Universe were watching over me and offering comfort in their own way for the things that hurt me. I am so grateful for the people who heal me and for the ability to listen when the Universe speaks. *Images from allaboutrosegardening.com and 90ninetattoodesigns.com. 
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I grew up in rural North Carolina. When I was only nineteen, I moved away and became a military wife. My only aspiration at that tender time in my life was to create an adult life that "fixed" all of the "injustices" of my childhood. Secretly, however, I wanted to reach for the sky! I wanted to be a writer and find ways to "save the world" (my mother used to say, "You have Save the World Syndrome".). Mostly, I wanted to matter. Archives
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