Heads or Tails?

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"How will you know if it's the right decision if you never make it?"

Two things are completely out of our control...whom we are born to and the fact that we will all die. The rest of the events that take place between those two points in time come down to choices (...not always of our own making, i.e. the drunk driver who gets behind the wheel of a car, causes an accident that changes or ends the life of another). I'd like to think that I've made more good choices than bad ones, but since keeping track of all the ones I've made in forty-five years would be nearly impossible, that's just a guess. I could go further, tipping the scales in my favor by saying that even the bad ones had positive outcomes but digging through that philosophical slant could take up many pages (...and I don't have that kind of time. Dinner's almost ready).

I'm not good with making a choice when many options are involved. Often, I'll put off choosing altogether until some future point when the moment of truth arrives and I have no choice but to decide (...the irony of that cracks me up). My choices for today were very simple and made without angst, hesitation, or reservations: blueberry muffins or toast with my eggs this morning; non-fiction article or picture book to read with my students; sandwich or leftovers for lunch, etc. But looming ahead of me are life-altering decisions that soon will demand my attention. Should I flip a coin and leave it up to chance? I remember mom telling me once that in her life she made the best decisions she could make with the information she had at the time and lived with the consequences. I don't know how I'll approach what's ahead. Heads, I'll make an informed decision. Tails, I'll close my eyes and pick one. Whatever happens, I'm prepared to not just live with it, but make the very best of those choices once they've been made.