Day Ninety-four: Attention Human-Your Presence is Requested. Signed, the Universe

Nellie Marie Fillini Brown November 1992

"You will get there when you are meant to get there. So relax, breathe and be patient." ~Mandy Hale

Many people I know and love are going through some tough stuff right now (...including myself & those closest to me). Health issues, loss, grief, loneliness, relationship problems, frightening uncertainty ahead of them and a host of other struggles they are all scratching and clawing to overcome. For me, it feels like the more chaos added to my life, the calmer I become and the more centered my soul anchors itself.

I was thinking earlier today about a conversation I had with my Nana, who had her share of big time hardships in life. When she was in her early forties, my grandfather died. They had eleven children, eight of which were still at home (...three already mostly grown and out of the house), Nana had no job and hadn't finished her college education. Nobody would have blamed her if she'd just given up, too overwhelmed by a seemingly impossible situation. But she wasn't hardwired to quit (which is one reason why she's always been an inspiration for me). She picked herself up, dusted herself off, and tackled one problem at a time. On a Thanksgiving not so long ago, I asked her, "Nana, how did you get through all of that?" She replied, "I didn't let myself think about all of it at the time. I just did it...one day at a time and before I knew it, many years had passed and everything worked out. If I'd thought about it too much, I'm not sure I could have managed it all without breaking, but by taking it one day at a time, I made it through." Now that she's in Heaven, I feel her and others I love watching over me, reminding me of things to get through the obstacles I'm facing, nudging me gently in this direction or that, and I am so grateful for those angels who remind me all the time, "It may not feel like it right now, but you got this Little One".

My take-away from my Nana? Show up every day. Deal with what's happening right now. Find the happy to be had in EACH day (...that one is Aunt Mattie's voice). And be grateful for the big and little blessings you have. None of us knows the future, nor are we in control of the cards we're dealt (...yes Michael, in this case it truly "is what it is"). All we do is now. All we have is now. What we can control is what we do about those cards tossed in front of us and our attitude about...well, everything (i.e. Aunt Mattie's, "Life is what you make it and the world is how you take it."). So, here I am, Universe. I got dressed and showed up to today! I'll do the same tomorrow...and the day after that, and all the days I'm allowed to have for the rest of my life (...even the yucky ones that make me want to run away, change my name, and press the "reset button").

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4 February 2015