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I am an "accidental blogger". When I launched my writing career in March of 2014, one of the things that I decided to include was my journaling, which I have always found to be a comforting and therapeutic endeavor.  It was a big risk to open myself up in such a public forum, but it has taught me that, for the most part, we share far more experiences than we think. It's comforting to know I'm not alone!  (*the "Button Text" is the link to my first novel)
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Day Ninety-five: Cliffhanger

2/5/2015

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I've been asking myself all day...what does it mean to be brave? Taking a risk having kids? Totally brave. Standing up for what you believe in, even if it might get you fired? Very courageous. Men and women who lace 'em up (i.e. our armed forces, military, police, firefighters) and run into the face danger while most people run the other way? Gold standard in bravery. But, like, what does bravery look like in the smaller decisions we make on a daily basis, or in folks who are just ordinary and not the aforementioned decisive heroes? This question has plagued me since the moment I opened my eyes this morning and just doesn't want to let go.

On any given day we are faced with a myriad of choices, most of which require very little risk or thought on our part. Some part of us, however, is still always doing a risk/reward assessment. How much do we want that sweet treat and is it worth hours in the gym afterwards (...or the spot it will take up on our ass if we don't go to the gym)? How much of our heart are we willing to lay raw for the sake of love (...especially if it's been broken a time or two and the sting hasn't completely worn off) or a dream that seems utterly unattainable? Do we do what is "safe" or "easy" for the sake of protecting ourselves, or should we take risks, especially the BIG ones that leave us feeling vulnerable and exposed?

Cliches' flood my mind..."Nothing ventured, nothing gained. Go big, or stay home. In the end, we only regret the chances we didn't take." My mother was fearless, but reckless. Mama Schaefer was fearless, but meticulous and took her risks with a measure of calculation. Aunt Mattie was fearless but also selfless, always putting the welfare of others first, frequently at the expense of her own desires and dreams. Nana was fearless and driven, her path determined by those depending on her to make it as smooth as possible (...a task she did with dogged determination). Am I brave? Where do I fit in on the scale of all these important ladies who came before me? These things have yet to be determined with any measurable accuracy, but I am sitting on the precipice of that cliff of personal growth and discovery waiting to see what will emerge. Today I'm very happy I have a pair of wings.

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    I grew up in rural North Carolina. When I was only nineteen, I moved away and became a military wife. My only aspiration at that tender time in my life was to create an adult life that "fixed" all of the "injustices" of my childhood. Secretly, however, I wanted to reach for the sky! I wanted to be a writer and find ways to "save the world" (my mother used to say, "You have Save the World Syndrome".). Mostly, I wanted to matter.

    Since then, I have learned to reach well beyond what I ever dared to think was possible. I've learned not to allow fear to stop me from whatever future I want to create!

    What keeps me grounded? My Tribe! What provides the wind beneath my wings? A well of reserves filled with unstoppable passion!

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