Buckle Up Y'all...

...we're going for a ride inside my head!

"You have this one life. How do you want to spend it? Apologizing? Regretting? Questioning? Hating yourself? Dieting? Running after people who don't see you? Be brave. Believe in yourself. Do what feels good. Take risks. You have this one life. Make yourself proud." ~Beardsley Jones

Every day that I peruse through quotes from various places, it always happens--one will stick with me like an extra strength post-it note stuck to my shoe. I could have used some of those as I wrote the one above down, because when I went outside to write today the wind blew my little sticky-note gem to God knows where. Maybe that quote is flying on a stiff breeze to someone who needed it for inspiration as much as I did. Luckily I save EVERYTHING!

As I sit here in the glorious, if a bit chilly sunshine and begin to unpack the words above bit by bit, this is what's happening inside my head:

"You have this one life." (Well, I do believe strongly in reincarnation, so you probably have as many lives as you wish, but THIS is the life you're living right now, so stay focused lady.) "How do you want to spend it?" (In Scotland...on a mountaintop, surrounded by people I love being around, making memories by doing all the stuff I haven't gotten to do yet but really, really want to, etc.) "Apologizing?" (Only when it's called for, and let's be honest...we know when it's called for. Period.) "Regretting?" (Only with my last breath, and if I do this life right, not even then...does anyone get to the end with zero regrets?) "Questioning?" (But, but, but...I can't help it! It is in my nature to question every damn thing. How do you stop something that's as natural to you as having blue eyes????) "Hating yourself?" (Not today, and not in a very long time, thankfully.) "Dieting?" (*snorts*) "Running after people who don't see you?" (...or want you, or make time for you, blah, blah, blah....got that T-shirt already, thanks. No more of that crap.You want to be in my life? Be there. You don't want to be in my life? I wish you well on your own journey.) "Be brave." (Okay. I don't always know what that means but I'm willing to give it a shot.) "Believe in yourself." (Mostly, I think I do. Yes, I do. Check.) "Do what feels good." (...but not at anyone else's expense.) "Take risks." (This one makes me smile because I can totally get on board with it as long as they are calculated risks. I am SO not the type to just "throw caution to the wind" and "damn the consequences. When it's time I pay the Piper, and we all MUST do that, I want to make absolutely sure I can afford the payment. The Piper doesn't take bad checks.) "You have this one life." (...or two, or five, or 337...whatever. And what about the possibility of alternate realities???? Okay, FOCUS Amy.) "Make yourself proud." (I'm getting there.)

And that, my friends, is exactly what it's like being inside my head. Scary, isn't it?!