A Perfect Life

There is no such thing as a perfect life, only a life well lived. Frankly, it has taken me far too long to truly come to terms with this simple truth. If I look back along my timeline, I can pick out places where I tried way too hard for an ideal that doesn't exist, meanwhile the hours ticked past. After so much time wasted, I am extremely mindful now of what or whom I will (...or won't) give my time to, because I now understand that time is, hands down, my most precious commodity.

I am also aware of how much of me I held back from the world for a myriad of really silly reasons. Living life at "full throttle" is a different experience altogether, and it totally takes some getting used to. Sometimes I catch myself right on the tail end of some experience or another that is so raw and real I stop and fleetingly ask myself, "Was that okay?" Then I slam on my mental brakes, reminding myself of Mama Schaefer's words, "...in the end, you have nothing to lose." God, how right she was. Those who are my Tribe will stick no matter what comes, on either their road OR mine. Those who aren't will quietly fall away, and that's okay. Most aren't meant to stay on our path to its end and only share the journey with us for a little while.

I've been watching this sit-com lately on Netflix called "Grace and Frankie", and the episode last night was, in part, about having a "Say Yes" night out. "Say Yes" night is exactly what it sounds like...you say "yes" to everything ahead of you without hesitation (...although, let's face it, there would have to be SOME reservation, depending on what the experience was at hand). I want a "Say Yes" life with boundaries that are true to my own inner peace and balance. I know, I know, that's cheating, right? But not really, because saying no to anything that doesn't stick to your highest truth is a really GOOD thing. The spirit of a "Say Yes" life, however, can still be attained and that is what I want the rest of my days on this Earth to look like. Will doing that make my life "perfect"? Doubtful. What it will do is make it as close to perfect as possible and I'll take it and be grateful!